So I am going through a bit of a rough patch at the moment. I don’t really have a topic for today, but I thought I might be able to work through some things if I rambled about them a bit on here.

I don’t really know what is wrong with me, other than to say that I’m just sad. I cry a lot, for no real reason. I struggle to sleep at night as my mind goes a mile a minute, and can barely stay awake during the day. I am absolutely plagued with indecision. I stress about the future ramifications of any decision I make, no matter how small.

I just really feel like a bundle of nerves. During a bout of tears the other night, I told Joaquin that I felt like butter spread over too much bread – because why use your own words when JRR Tolkien probably said it better. I know introvert is a very popular term these days, but I definitely am one. I need alone time to recharge, and I haven’t gotten any of that lately. It has gotten to the point where I don’t even want to go to the theatre to see shows (and if there is one thing this blog makes clear, it is that I love theatre). But when I give up my theatre tickets, I worry about how much I might regret it.

It is really an odd position to find myself in, and though I have found myself in some slumps in the past, I really pride myself on being a strong person, picking myself up and getting over it no matter how rough things seem. I am hopeful that things will improve soon, and I am so incredibly lucky to have such a supportive and understanding spouse. I just don’t want to feel like this anymore.

I know I will bounce back soon. In the meantime, I am glad to be able to distract myself with knitting, mindless TV, and trashy books.

7 thoughts on “Sadness

  1. I wish you all the best and I hope you feel better soon. Sometimes we dont need any particular reason. Sadness comes and goes as it pleases with no rhyme or reason. However it is crucial that in such periods you try to.unwind yourself. Things become too much to handle but dont buckle under their pressure. The Tolkien quote is something I have over used in trying to make people understand how I feel. It is amazing how well someone can interpret what goes on in our minds.
    You will be fine, take care! 🙂

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